Kdy\u017e jsem pak zjistila, \u017ee jsem t\u011bhotn\u00e1, Loki se zm\u011bnila.
Z divok\u00e9ho, hrav\u00e9ho psa se stala str\u00e1\u017ekyn\u011b. Kamkoli jsem \u0161la, byla tam. V noci spala u postele, hlavu v\u017edy na m\u00e9m b\u0159i\u0161e, jako by poslouchala tlukot mal\u00e9ho srd\u00ed\u010dka, kter\u00e9 rostlo uvnit\u0159 m\u011b.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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<\/figure>\n\n\n\nA pak se to stalo poprv\u00e9.
Man\u017eel p\u0159i\u0161el dom\u016f pozd\u011b. Byl c\u00edtit alkoholem. Sedl si ke mn\u011b a nat\u00e1hl ruku, aby pohladil m\u00e9 b\u0159icho. Loki se v tu chv\u00edli postavila, zje\u017eila srst a za\u010dala vr\u010det. Zp\u016fsobem, jak\u00fd jsem u n\u00ed nikdy nesly\u0161ela. Kdy\u017e neustoupil, vycenila zuby.
\u201eOna se zbl\u00e1znila!\u201c k\u0159i\u010del.
Ale j\u00e1 ji uklidnila. Myslela jsem, \u017ee p\u0159eh\u00e1n\u00ed. \u017de pes c\u00edt\u00ed hormony, zm\u011bny n\u00e1lad, \u017ee chr\u00e1n\u00ed \u0161t\u011bn\u011b, kter\u00e9 vn\u00edm\u00e1 jako sv\u00e9.
Jen\u017ee Loki se u\u017e nikdy neuklidnila v jeho p\u0159\u00edtomnosti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Po narozen\u00ed d\u00edt\u011bte se nap\u011bt\u00ed zm\u011bnilo v ticho.
Man\u017eel se vyh\u00fdbal pohled\u016fm, dom\u016f se vracel pozd\u011b, a kdy\u017e mal\u00fd plakal, jeho o\u010di potemn\u011bly.
Jednou jsem v noci usly\u0161ela Loki, jak ti\u0161e k\u0148u\u010d\u00ed. \u0160la jsem dol\u016f do ob\u00fdv\u00e1ku \u2013 a tam st\u00e1l on, nad kol\u00e9bkou. Ruku m\u011bl nata\u017eenou k d\u00edt\u011bti, ale v jeho tv\u00e1\u0159i bylo n\u011bco\u2026 nep\u0159irozen\u00e9ho.
Loki st\u00e1la mezi nimi, zuby vycen\u011bn\u00e9, o\u010di pln\u00e9 nen\u00e1visti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201eOdstav toho psa, nebo ji zabiju,\u201c zasy\u010del.
Ale j\u00e1 poprv\u00e9 pochopila, \u017ee ten pes nen\u00ed m\u016fj nep\u0159\u00edtel.
Byla to ona, kdo m\u011b varoval.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Za\u010dala jsem si v\u0161\u00edmat drobnost\u00ed.
N\u011bkdy byl na d\u00edt\u011b a\u017e p\u0159\u00edli\u0161 n\u011b\u017en\u00fd \u2013 jindy ho ignoroval, jako by ho nen\u00e1vid\u011bl.
A pak jednoho dne, kdy\u017e jsem ukl\u00edzela, jsem na\u0161la n\u011bco, co mi zlomilo srdce.
Fotky. Zpr\u00e1vy.
D\u016fkazy, \u017ee vedl dvoj\u00ed \u017eivot. Ale to nebylo v\u0161echno.
Jedna z t\u011bch \u017een psala: \u201eJak jsi to mohl ud\u011blat? V\u017edy\u0165 jsi mi \u0159\u00edkal, \u017ee ta \u017eena ti zni\u010dila \u017eivot.\u201c<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ten den jsem pochopila v\u0161echno.
Ta agrese, to ticho, to chladn\u00e9 odcizen\u00ed \u2013 nebyla to \u00fanava, nebyl to stres. Byla to nen\u00e1vist, kterou skr\u00fdval.
Nen\u00e1vist v\u016f\u010di mn\u011b.
A Loki to c\u00edtila od prvn\u00edho dne.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kdy\u017e jsem mu \u0159ekla, \u017ee v\u00edm pravdu, pokusil se m\u011b chytit za ruku.
Loki sko\u010dila mezi n\u00e1s.
Jeho k\u0159ik se rozlehl po dom\u011b, krev se objevila na jeho pa\u017ei, a j\u00e1 b\u011b\u017eela \u2013 s d\u00edt\u011btem v n\u00e1ru\u010d\u00ed, s Loki po boku \u2013 ven, do noci.
Nikdy jsem se neohl\u00e9dla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dnes \u017eijeme jen my t\u0159i.
J\u00e1, moje d\u00edt\u011b a Loki.
N\u011bkdy, kdy\u017e ji vid\u00edm sp\u00e1t u kol\u00e9bky, s tlapou polo\u017eenou p\u0159es okraj, uv\u011bdom\u00edm si, \u017ee kdyby nebylo j\u00ed, mo\u017en\u00e1 bych tu u\u017e nebyla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u016fj pes v\u011bd\u011bl pravdu d\u0159\u00edv ne\u017e j\u00e1.
A zaplatil by \u017eivotem, kdyby m\u011b to m\u011blo zachr\u00e1nit.
Lid\u00e9 \u0159\u00edkaj\u00ed, \u017ee zv\u00ed\u0159ata nemluv\u00ed.
Ale n\u011bkdy sta\u010d\u00ed jedno zavr\u010den\u00ed, aby ti zachr\u00e1nilo sv\u011bt.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Le\u017eel mi na b\u0159i\u0161e a vr\u010del poka\u017ed\u00e9, kdy\u017e se m\u011b man\u017eel sna\u017eil dotknout.Myslela jsem si, \u017ee jen \u017e\u00e1rl\u00ed. \u017de ho bol\u00ed, kdy\u017e u\u017e \n [...]<\/a>","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3596,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3595","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-1"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/chexia.info\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3595","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/chexia.info\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/chexia.info\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chexia.info\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chexia.info\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3595"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/chexia.info\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3595\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3597,"href":"https:\/\/chexia.info\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3595\/revisions\/3597"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chexia.info\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/3596"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/chexia.info\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3595"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chexia.info\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3595"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/chexia.info\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3595"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}